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Closure Posted on Dec 6, 2018, 3:12 am
I came home right after - today was my day with the kiddos. I made dinner, gave Miriam a shower, made sure Tai practiced his trombone, fed the dogs. I lit a candle. Now it’s nearly midnight and while I feel a little melancholy for ‘what might have been’ and ‘what I imagined it would be’, I know that I am content. I am fine. I am growing.

Denial Posted on Dec 4, 2018, 6:12 pm
For most of my life, I've felt different. Too shy, too anxious, too bookish, too awkward. I wanted to fit in, but I wasn't sure how. I didn't start drinking to fit in, but when I drank I felt like I did - or at least I didn't care that I was different.

Bittersweet Posted on Dec 3, 2018, 1:12 am
Having a quiet evening at home, after a day of catching up on chores that I let slide while the kiddos were here. Pups are curled up beside me on the couch, snoring. Candles flicker on the mantel. Classical music is playing softly. The quiet is both a balm, and bittersweet.

Not Perfect Posted on Dec 2, 2018, 2:12 am
Just make it perfect. Easy peasy lemon squeezy, right? You can find perfection on Pinterest and Facebook.

Holiday Letter 2017 Posted on Dec 3, 2017, 10:12 pm
A very summarized summary of the last year and a bit.

Holidailies, again Posted on Dec 2, 2017, 2:12 am
We managed to fly in, visit Disneyland, eat a late lunch, see the show, go out to a late dinner, get up and get breakfast and back to the airport and home, all in just over 24 hours.

Restless Posted on Dec 5, 2016, 2:12 am
I’m feeling that longing again, that restlessness that tends to bubble up, telling me that there’s something I’m meant to be doing with my life that I’m not.

Striving for the Spirit Posted on Dec 4, 2016, 2:12 am
The hazards of putting the kids to bed when they go to sleep in my bed. I lay down with them, just until they fall asleep… and then I wake up at 3 am, still in my jeans and with all the lights on downstairs.

That Time of Year Posted on Dec 2, 2016, 2:12 am
Maybe writing every day will get things more clear in my head, and in my heart, because I’ve been in a dark space lately and I’m counting the days until the Solstice, when the darkness begins to retreat and the light returns.

Mixed Bag Posted on Dec 4, 2015, 2:12 am
At the end of all the blah-blah, I post a puppy picture.

Loss for words Posted on Dec 3, 2015, 3:12 am
With no wisdom after today's tragedy, I offer a list of things that made me smile.

Feels like Winter Posted on Dec 2, 2015, 2:12 am
A brief Intro